CHILD rapist Keith John William took the life of his victim ‘in the most ruthless, cruel way you can could ever imagine’, his victim has said.
The words are part of a victim impact statement the South Derbyshire victim has made which will be heard at Williams’ parole hearing later this year.
In 1999, Williams was found guilty on five charges of rape and two of indecent assaults against a child when she was aged between eight and 15. The attacks took place in his parent’s pubs between 1979 and 1985.
In the statement, the woman, now 42, said: “I can feel the distress, anger and despair building up inside me.
“The thought that Williams may be released soon is too much to bear and I feel totally and utterly helpless.
“It is hard to even try to begin to explain how my life has been affected, as I feel that whatever I say, whatever words I use, will never even come close to putting across the horror of what I have had to live through.
“I cannot get away from the places where the abuse happened and I am constantly surrounded by excruciatingly painful flashbacks, no matter where I go or what I do.”
The victim has undergone psychological therapy and suffered mental health issues, including post-traumatic stress disorder, depression, anxiety and panic attacks, and fits from repressed memories as a result of the abuse.
She said the abuse has left her unable to form healthy relationships and she struggles to form an idea of ‘what is normal’.
She said: “The boundaries, trust issues, sexual issues and relationships cannot be forged when you have been undignified, violated and endured the kind of such heinous acts that I did, it is indescribable.
“Keith William had my past, my present and my future.
“I had a right to a normal, happy life but he took that away in the most ruthless, cruel way you could ever imagine.
“I will never get my life back, that much I do know.
“My future looks bleak and I cannot even imagine how I will feel when Williams is eventually released.
“I cannot bring myself to even contemplate it, even though I know I will be forced to do so one day too soon.
“Feelings of anger and injustice run high amongst our family.
“I fear for the safety of all children out there, will they ever be safe with Williams around?”
“I have no hope of being able to protect them all, but I need to know that I am trying my best, in whatever small way I can.”